August292009
8/?/09 - Bitbit Cafe’s Beef Stew.
On the way out of our restaurant, Pony couldn’t find her keys. We looked on the shelves, we looked in the drawers, we looked in unlikely places (like the space between cups). They were nowhere in sight.
What are you looking for? Shuixian asked, then carried on peeling her potatoes as before, while we continued our search in more improbable places.
Suddenly, she threw down the peeler and pointed at a shelf above our heads, There it is! Her face glowed with triumph.
How did you see it?
I love the feeling of finding things, she smiled, so whenever I see people search, I would always keep an eye out, hoping I’m the one to discover first.
***
What feeling are you addicted to? Pony asked me some time later when the episode had already left my mind.
Hmmm?
You know how Shuixian said she likes to find things? I like the feeling of being chased.
Metaphorically?
No, literally. Remember that day when I rang grandma’s doorbell?
Yes, I remember that day. Pony had a moment of confusion and thought we had gone to the wrong door. Instead of waiting to apologize, my little sister screamed and grabbed my hand. Without having enough time to process everything, I bolted down flights of stairs with her before she abruptly came to a stop and laughed, Oh wait, I made a mistake - that WAS grandma’s door.
Why did we run? I could barely catch my breath. I had never seen her run so fast on a treadmill.
I don’t know, she said sheepishly. I took off before I could think about it.
I love the rush of being chased, she said. What about you?
***
I keep thinking of Emilia’s turn of phrase: hooked on a feeling.
So what about me?
I’m hooked on metamorphosis.
